Hurricane Lisa Update from Owner, Director and President of the Board Gretchen Smith
So I had this dream and then life happened. I’ve been a self supporting missionary and business consultant for 25 years and I have seen a lot. I worked in anti human trafficking for most of that so I have had my share of death threats and drama. Everyone tells me I should write a book. I write a lot of journals and articles on linked in and facebook and probably someone might have the time to compile a book about my life as a missionary however I am busy building my dream and trying to survive and get beans and rice for the day and make sure no one kills me and more importantly that I don’t kill anyone. I don’t think people really read all that much anymore. I think my life is better suited to a made for tv movie anyways.
I really don’t have a lot of time to get into all that has happened but they say God puts you through the fire to test you and burn out impurities. I must still have a lot of impurities because the fires rage on…then again, maybe I am more like Job who didn’t really do anything wrong but had a life of suffering and even his friend could not be counted on…yup…that sounds more like my journey.
While serving in Mexico in 2013 I witnessed two murders and got PTSD and went to jail briefly for it where my human rights were violated by police. I diligently worked hard to overcome that and got therapy and was quickly stabilizing and hoping to get off of disability within 5 years or so however several additional traumatic events happened to here in Belize once I returned in 2017 and you can read more about my recent testimony of surviving cancer, lung disease, corruption and Hurricane Lisa at link below. Now I am diagnosed with C-PTSD and disabled and most days I wonder if I am a cat because Satan has tried to kill me so many times I think I lost count now.
Here is a link to my testimony about surviving Hurricane Lisa on FB
https://www.facebook.com/photo/?fbid=10160647464389415&set=a.10150451872899415
I did an interview awhile ago as well with the Unshakeable Woman Podcast and there are 10 or 20 other interviews out there in internetland with my testimonies of surviving one life threatening situation after another but I am not really sure where they all are and don’t care to be reminded of past tragedies as I am focused on the future and getting justice and maybe being found by a man who does not mind a Deborah…or perhaps a Jael (look up Judges 4 and 5)
Here is a link to the Unshakeable Woman Podcase Interview though.
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/season-3-ep-70-gretchen-smith/id1489915551?i=100054876510
I prefer to think of myself as a Janitor for Jesus. My guiding verses are Isaiah 1:17-18, Psalms 105:15-16, Jer 1:10, Is 61:1, Luke 15:3-7, Acts 2:46
I know I am not supposed to launch a website or a dream that is in a messy state but I am long past any perfectionism so here you will get me in all my authentic glory and mess, typos, bad formatting, horrible design, endless ramblings full of stress due to disability coming through loud and clear because I have been blocked from getting justice.
It’s not that I don’t know what needs to be done. I just don’t have the energy or resources to do it (due to Complex PTSD, health problems with my lungs and general life stressors) and I am patiently waiting for people to come alongside of me and help build the vision and build a proper website and build a proper foundation for generations to come. I don’t care if this takes me the rest of my life and I don’t care if I fail to see even one building built. I will sit here in my little 200sf room shaking from PTSD from the fireworks that have gone off endlessly with my emotional support dog Cali by my side raging at the walls about the injustice of it all with a tropical storm leaking through every crevice and flooding my floor and drenching my bed and once in awhile I will pop something onto a public space on the internet that might make sense to someone else in between my rage filled posts.
I will also fight tooth and nail to keep my faith because I applied for emancipation from God and my application was denied by the courts in the heavenlies. Apparently what you see is what you get…trauma and all.
This is the 6th Hurricane I have survived but my story is much more than that and someday when I have the energy and someone helps me to tell my whole story I guess I will but verbal communication is hard, if not next to impossible for me due to the C-PTSD.
Until then you will have to excuse me because there is a whole lot to be done to build a strong foundation for my Foundation which is actually an NGO. LOL…that too is a story for another day too. Now excuse me while I go watch some more videos underground bunkers as I am working hard to becoming a conspiracy theory nut or at the very least a prepper. After all I have one homemade jar of of canned beans and one homemade jar of canned beets and six bottles of water and a working flashlight in my pantry in my shack so I am well on my way.
If I sound crazy it is definitely because I am…certifiable in fact but here is the thing. That does not mean I am wrong and it does not mean I don’t know what I am doing. It just means I have lack of resources (physically, emotionally and spiritually) and it also means some people can’t keep up and that is okay with me. I am an INTJ with High IQ and 25 years experience so that just means not everyone will understand me or appreciate me. My pastor always said run as fast as you can towards Jesus and if anyone can keep up stop and introduce yourself and journey together for awhile.
Resources are much needed. Kindly contact me VIA TEXT at +501-672-0547 or tallartist@hotmail.com. As a reminder I am disabled and as such the main accommodation I need is WRITTEN COMMUNICATION in a timely and effective manner.
